I woke up with the shits, and then had a mental breakdown in the grocery store. There were people everywhere, with their lives together, and all I could do was hide in my husbands chest and wish I could just … Continue reading
Let me reintroduce myself. I was scared. But now I am not. I have found a courage that can only be obtained by doing the deep dark scary things I put off for years. I do not fear you anymore. I … Continue reading
There are pieces of me strewn along the office floor. There are parts of me hiding in the drawers of the guest room. Pieces of me hiding under my bed, thrown into the closets, sleeping under my pillow. Each pile … Continue reading
I’ll admit it, I was a fan of the Duggar family. I did NOT agree (and was often outraged) with any of their religious or political views, but I can completely disagree with a persons moral values and still respect their … Continue reading
Sometimes, I miss the cigarettes. I miss the booze. I miss the blade over my skin. Mostly, I miss the avoidance. I could wrap all of my unsettling feelings up with a nice little bow, and pretend they didn’t exist. … Continue reading
i have dirt under my fingernails and cracks and ridges where soft skin should be my hair is pulled up into a messy rats nest with brittle ends and greasy roots my face … Continue reading
i wake up to the back of his neck. i nuzzle my face into his skin and i repeat i need you i need you i need you i stare at the tattoo on his back his hair the way … Continue reading
People change. I think sometimes, the replacing of a stagnant creature benefits all … but sometimes, the transformation is almost too much to bear. Some things you can’t go back to. Inevitably, time slips away, and with it leaves the … Continue reading
Haunt my thoughts
Until the very blood in my veins
drips with darkness.
Suffocated in times past
I cannot run
I cannot hide
I cannot hold my breath
It is there
my closest friend.
Though I no longer cave to the thoughts of ending my own life,
I now fear that
are killing me.